Warning: Possible Taper Rant

So the taper is in full affect (being only 4 days out from the race).  I worked long, hard hours all weekend, and then did a little over 5 miles on both Sunday and Monday.  Today I cut the grass (which will be my run for the day).  I plan to just go run for about 30 minutes tomorrow, and then the next time I run it will be for 100 miles (if all goes well).

I feel good some times, and other times it seems impossible that the race is this close.  I am glad that I will have a big crew, but that also adds to the pressure of not wanting to let anyone down who has traveled so far.  I'm glad that folks want to know how I am feeling, but to be honest, at this point it doesn't really matter.  The race is starting Saturday morning.  So, whether I feel great or terrible between now in then, the race is going to start at 4:00 on Saturday, and I am going to be there.  I hope folks don't feel upset with that kind of answer, but I'd rather they wish me luck or something of that nature, because asking how I feel is pretty inconsequential.

Everything from here on out is mental.  I am not going to get stronger or weaker in less than a week.  So that leads to this mental roller coaster.  When I am talking to folks that know about the race, and talking strategy, I feel good.  When someone asks how I feel, or if I am ready, it makes me think too much about something that doesn't matter.  So until Josh pulls the trigger on that single shot 12 gauge on Saturday morning, I'll be up and down in my head.

On a lighter note, I made a big pot of gumbo last night, and a few people from around town, and my crew will be having a good size dinner here at the house tonight.

I don't know if all runners getting ready for an ultra-marathon go through these feelings, but I thought this might provide some insight into how it feels the week before in my head.